COLLEGE IS SCARY!!!

Perhaps to motivate myself, perhaps not. Well, I attended my first actual college class this month. I have always had this insane, nearly paralyzing fear of college. I had not double checked on my courses, so on the first day back for Christmas break, I was not expecting to attend my college classes. I searched for where they were the morning before, and printed off the schedule, but it did not show the class number. This led to issues as I tried to find where my class was. I spent near half an hour trying to find it online, connecting to data and looking for the building it was in. I also considered cutting class and not going that day. I finally figured out where it was, walked up a flight of stairs, approached the door to the class, smoothed my outfit and started to walk in. I was terrified. There sat thirty other people in the classroom, all at least two years older than I. I could not find an empty seat. The only person to smile at me was a woman that was probably in her forties. Who knows, maybe even with a couple kids. I found an empty seat and sat down. It took a minute for me to focus, as it was so intimidating, but, then, I thought, "they are probably not any smarter than me, more capable or more worthy of this than I am. Why am I so scared? They have no idea how young I am and I am supposed to be here." So, I relaxed, began taking notes and talked to the professor at the end about my being late like it was no big deal. I realized how much my mind literally determines what I will do, who I will become, and what "chances" I will be willing to take. So, I have not missed class since, have learned a lot, and have gotten past my feeling of inferiority due to age. So I suppose I enjoy the few actual college classes I have. College is cool, not intimidating. So many different types of people, all pursuing different goals, all hoping to fufill their dreams, at any age, and why should I be restricted from that?

Age truly is just a number. Chase your dreams!